Luvprada

25 April 2009

The time after the first date can be a very emotional experience. Those memories, vividly projected in your mind, you can hardly halt that. It is like a stroboscope, things you did together flash in and out, you see that clearly. Subsequently, the excitement of what to do next race through your mind. These emotions are magnified even further if the date was a success.

How much wonderful time I had with you. Things just went too fast and I scarcely have time to slow down and play it cool. Instead of days, this time an hour or two after the first date make me so obsessed in collecting thoughts. Absence does not make the heart grow fonder, but anxiety overwhelms everything.

I am just too fast to come across as being infatuated. I sent a sms to leave you with the feeling that I am very interested. I don’t want to give you the impression I am not as this could put doubts in your mind.

But.. there is not any response from you..

26 April 2009

Breaking up sucks. As much as it pains me to use such crass terminology, there’s really no way around it though we never start a relationship. It’s heinous. It’s depressing. It bites.

I did call and contact several of my friends, to gain some perspectives. Thank for the people who are there for me when I need someone to talk to, your voice of encouragement, your supports and your innocent presumptions that help to drive me out from the Valley of Grief and Heartache, and I’m really gratitude you guys did really help.

 
However, I still know I can do better. I hope. My belief that I wish I can mesh into something resembling encouragement for us all.

I have begun the healing process, the way I did in Melbourne before. I crank up the music and sing it with a vengeance.

I never get through any anger, I simply deal with the pain.

And I wonder if I should ever bother to do this again because there is so…much…pain… involved in being involved.

There are many excited singles longing to reach a first date. Getting to know someone doesn’t need to be achieved within a few days, it’s a process that needs to take time. The relationship needs space to breath.